Yellow n Black

I m brave enough to attend yours. see here i m .

OMG , I m 26 now :P

It's light

I remember someone saying to me; After every rainfall there's a rainbow. When Allah takes everything and everyone away from you, just know that.. Allah does that so it's just you and Him. So Allah can listen to you when you cry. When you talk. When you're looking for answers. Whatever the circumstances. SubhanAllah. So when Allah breaks you, it's never to hurt you.. But to make you a better individual. A stronger individual...

HOPELESS

I cant do my research this year. so sad to believe it so bad to know it :(. i wish he was not my second adviser. I don't think he is good adviser , he should guide me ,support me, take decision if he doesn't agree with mine but what he does just make unclear i don't know whether he like or not .y make me confused , sir . He play with his mind rather than theories. hello!!!!!!!, this is a research we need theories as guidance . He sometimes says to me that this research is not only about the result but also about the mental test. many students don't move forward coz their mental are not ready for arguing or to see their adviser  but should we examine mental of someone when she need to finish her study ,when she need more money coz need to go to see him that spent 8 hours on the way, don't he think about the parents. He is so complicated adviser.

Ready to go to my american friends' farewell Party

sorry bit messy behind but really i m in hurry :P

to cover the messy things :P i edit my pic so here is the result  :)

My lovely Socks

Finally , i wear these socks after 5 years ,don't have any other socks :( actually it s present that has been given by my Korean friend in 2007, this type of sock is so famous among the Korean until now, coz they have famous actor ,actress or singer picture on it. my socks picture is Lee seung ki .the actor of king two heart ;) . Normally people use or wear the present but me i prefer to save it :P

Air Manis Beach

I'm so Excited to be here 

I m singing korean song :p

[KPOP Holic]Songed By [fareshtekuchlu] "그 여자 (드라마"시크릿 가든") - Baek Ji Young" - http://kpop.kymedia.kr/iface/index.php?record_id=010240O9P2C14T9846VWF2QW2D4324AQF886P16XO64Q9S44

Meet my Old Friends

Assalamualaikum readers,

it has been for ages not share my own story . well , this week i just got surprise from my old friend. yes , she is Dani . we haven't met each other about  3 years . N the biggest news from her is she has got married 5 months ago . really i don't have any ideas coz we lost contact . unbelievable she get married first than me hehehehe as i know she is a type of person thats not easy to make her fall in love for boys . anyway , i m happy for her :).

dani n husband (the two left) ,rebecca onni n me ^_^

We met her at my Korean friend house . actually , i don't have any planning to go there since it was almost at 9 pm.but my Korean friend ask me to come coz it is difficult to have time together .my  Korean friend were willing to take me home. and asked permission from my parents.thanks uppa!!!!!!  without any preparation n no make up , just dressed in hurry.i went there n met dani there .

It was lovely night among them , rebecca onni n huband, dani n husband n me the single . mean i m still not mature. that what they said.heheheheh . ok soon i also will have a good news for them amiiiiin !!!. 

Good friends :)

we chatted about many things , onni served food n drinks also. uppa serve us the most expensive coffee in the world. i m so lucky , i could drink that coffee. the name of the coffee is luwak coffee. among 7 billions people in the world. only 200 people around the world can drink it  per day  coz of the price is very expensive for a cup of coffee. As i know uppa ( abang in indonesia i call it for rebecca onni husband) is a distributor of luwak coffee in Indonesia with good quality n it has been proved . i m so happy for having such good friends like them even we r come from different generation . :)

Eid Mubbarak :)

This is my outfit for Eid :) 

Maika Bag ^_^

 

It Gonna be Mine , insyallah :)

I love photography since i ve found one page that inspire me lots to capture the nature of beauty . But harus sedikit bersabar untuk dapetin type kamera yang ini karena tabungan ku masih belum cukup. doain ya ada rezeki buat nambahin duit di tabungan then i can buy this one :). amiiin

I m reading these books for August

Meet by Destiny

I will not looking for Him , and He is also not looking for me

I want we meet each other because of the destiny that Allah create for me n him just like Fatimah az-zahra and Ali bin Abi thalib

I m pretty sure Allah has prepare one for me

Amiin 

Reminder!!!!

Good Friends

Shaun the sheep addictive :P

before

after :)

My Du'a

나의 사랑 이야기 (My love Story )

Assalamualaikum  readers,

Many people ask me , Do u have boyfriend? Have u ever felt in love? Coz we never see  u go out with ur boy .My answer for the questions above is yes i ever had. Some men came to my life but only One , yes the one who still have space in my heart .

There are many love  that has come into my life in different forms. Some people who came to my life as lesson and other as blessing . One man come to me as lesson and as blessing. Yes ,He is my first love who lives million miles away from me. He came to me when i was down and  needed a hand .He came to me just like a rainbow after the rain.His name has same letter like me but only different on the position of the letter. I wonder it made us close to each other.That man lives in Canada.Right!! we 'd long distance relationship. Many people were doubt toward me n him. but he proved with his action.Long distance is not big problem as long as both person do effort toward each other . Our love is sweeter than any candies in this world . With him i could smile,laugh, learn and understand many things about life.Every troubles that happen to me He is the first person that i remembered . he helped me lots even he wasn't here with me beside me . I was crying with him but he always knew how to put smile on my face. He is not only a good listener but he is also a person who will give solution . He is not only say God will help u but also try to solve the problem as possible as he can. From this i knew he is not my friend but he is someone special . it also showed me that how care he was to me.

With him, i feel special. He love to share everything to me  like what he did and what happen in his life. He also like to listen to my stories even unimportant stories. n once again my heart told me that I m really exist in his life . Problem and conflict , of course we had sometimes. actually every relationship must be having problem but not all problems can destroy relationship that u have . some problems can make u stronger as long as u can handle it . it also can make u understand each other.Even we had problem .even he was angry to me. at the end if it my mistake i would say sorry to him or even not my mistake . what make this relationship beautiful , he is not kind of man who feel reluctant to say sorry . He also said sorry to me for what he did n what he said when he was angry to me . this relationship is so good coz we had lots of love ,care and respect.

Sometime he left me unpredictable offline message just to say how special i m in his life or just to say sorry coz the little times he had for me. He knows me than anyone else even in my silence or just see my face. Yes i always miss him . He doesn't like me when i get stubborn and when i think negative about him coz of less attention from him or the limited time that he had or he was too busy. but He control my feeling so well he knows how to handle me . I still remember that song that we love to sing together.

pussy cat 2x

where have u bee

I ve been from london to visit the queen

pussy cat 2x

what did u there

i scared the little mouse under the chair.

He told me that he would have bunch of flower while waiting me in the airport one day
He told me that he would have teddy bear coz he knows that i love it lots
He told me that he would have a persian cat coz he knows  that i love cat
He told me that he would have a digital camera coz he knows that i love to see beauty in the capture
He told me that he would give big hug to let me know that he will protect me there.

He loves me as i m even my childish side is dominant in me. He called me Fareshte kuchlu ( tiny angel ) its Persian language. and i also call him in persian too he taught me so call him Fareshte bozorgh ( big angel). I love when i said to esghe mani azizam ( i love u sweety)  n he replied aku cinta kamu juga ( i love u too) in my language. He helped me on my study when i m struggling on it. He is the first man who said my name in front of Ka'bah .He means lots to me.

But this love story have to be end . this is not what we want. this not because i m not good for him or he is not good for me.We decided to split for the sake of Allah.We love Allah than anything else in this world . We cant together coz we want to pleasant Allah .We decide to keep on what faith that we have. It 's pain. But once again this is for the sake of Allah. Even we cant be together he is always in my pray. i wish he can find good woman n also have beautiful life  . This man come to me as lesson. he teach me how to love Allah than anything else ,be confident toward my self , and what is love. he is also as blessing .He makes my life brighter than the morning sun and colorful than the crayon .

now it has been months we don't talk n contact each other. honestly i miss him . sometime i don't think that i  will find someone like him any more . it's hard to forget him . but hopefully my faith make me strong n keep trust to ALLAH that sometime the person that we want most is the person is best without  and ALLAH  must have another planning for me and his life . Last , Hope both of us will have our good happy ending even we r not together. Thank u for love fareshte bozorgh  , thank u for everything may ALLAH bless u .......

with love

fareshte kuchlu