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나의 사랑 이야기 (My love Story )

Assalamualaikum  readers,

Many people ask me , Do u have boyfriend? Have u ever felt in love? Coz we never see  u go out with ur boy .My answer for the questions above is yes i ever had. Some men came to my life but only One , yes the one who still have space in my heart .

There are many love  that has come into my life in different forms. Some people who came to my life as lesson and other as blessing . One man come to me as lesson and as blessing. Yes ,He is my first love who lives million miles away from me. He came to me when i was down and  needed a hand .He came to me just like a rainbow after the rain.His name has same letter like me but only different on the position of the letter. I wonder it made us close to each other.That man lives in Canada.Right!! we 'd long distance relationship. Many people were doubt toward me n him. but he proved with his action.Long distance is not big problem as long as both person do effort toward each other . Our love is sweeter than any candies in this world . With him i could smile,laugh, learn and understand many things about life.Every troubles that happen to me He is the first person that i remembered . he helped me lots even he wasn't here with me beside me . I was crying with him but he always knew how to put smile on my face. He is not only a good listener but he is also a person who will give solution . He is not only say God will help u but also try to solve the problem as possible as he can. From this i knew he is not my friend but he is someone special . it also showed me that how care he was to me.

With him, i feel special. He love to share everything to me  like what he did and what happen in his life. He also like to listen to my stories even unimportant stories. n once again my heart told me that I m really exist in his life . Problem and conflict , of course we had sometimes. actually every relationship must be having problem but not all problems can destroy relationship that u have . some problems can make u stronger as long as u can handle it . it also can make u understand each other.Even we had problem .even he was angry to me. at the end if it my mistake i would say sorry to him or even not my mistake . what make this relationship beautiful , he is not kind of man who feel reluctant to say sorry . He also said sorry to me for what he did n what he said when he was angry to me . this relationship is so good coz we had lots of love ,care and respect.

Sometime he left me unpredictable offline message just to say how special i m in his life or just to say sorry coz the little times he had for me. He knows me than anyone else even in my silence or just see my face. Yes i always miss him . He doesn't like me when i get stubborn and when i think negative about him coz of less attention from him or the limited time that he had or he was too busy. but He control my feeling so well he knows how to handle me . I still remember that song that we love to sing together.

pussy cat 2x

where have u bee

I ve been from london to visit the queen

pussy cat 2x

what did u there

i scared the little mouse under the chair.

He told me that he would have bunch of flower while waiting me in the airport one day
He told me that he would have teddy bear coz he knows that i love it lots
He told me that he would have a persian cat coz he knows  that i love cat
He told me that he would have a digital camera coz he knows that i love to see beauty in the capture
He told me that he would give big hug to let me know that he will protect me there.

He loves me as i m even my childish side is dominant in me. He called me Fareshte kuchlu ( tiny angel ) its Persian language. and i also call him in persian too he taught me so call him Fareshte bozorgh ( big angel). I love when i said to esghe mani azizam ( i love u sweety)  n he replied aku cinta kamu juga ( i love u too) in my language. He helped me on my study when i m struggling on it. He is the first man who said my name in front of Ka'bah .He means lots to me.

But this love story have to be end . this is not what we want. this not because i m not good for him or he is not good for me.We decided to split for the sake of Allah.We love Allah than anything else in this world . We cant together coz we want to pleasant Allah .We decide to keep on what faith that we have. It 's pain. But once again this is for the sake of Allah. Even we cant be together he is always in my pray. i wish he can find good woman n also have beautiful life  . This man come to me as lesson. he teach me how to love Allah than anything else ,be confident toward my self , and what is love. he is also as blessing .He makes my life brighter than the morning sun and colorful than the crayon .

now it has been months we don't talk n contact each other. honestly i miss him . sometime i don't think that i  will find someone like him any more . it's hard to forget him . but hopefully my faith make me strong n keep trust to ALLAH that sometime the person that we want most is the person is best without  and ALLAH  must have another planning for me and his life . Last , Hope both of us will have our good happy ending even we r not together. Thank u for love fareshte bozorgh  , thank u for everything may ALLAH bless u .......

with love

fareshte kuchlu

Yangpa & Davichi & HANNA - Love is all the same

Lyric
*그대 울지 말아요 슬퍼하지 말아요 사랑은 다 그런 거래요
마음 주면 줄수록 가슴 아픈 거래요 아파야 사랑인거죠
그만 눈물 거둬요 그대 이젠 웃어요 사랑이 또 그댈 울려도
진정 사랑했다면 진정 후회 없다면 그것으로 된 거죠
*REPEAT
RAP]
눈물이 흐르는건 사랑했단 뜻이죠
애써 지우려해도 지울수가 없네요
그립고 그리울 땐 그 이름을 불러
너무나 외로울 땐 두눈을 또 감어
죽을만큼 보고 싶고 안고 싶을때
가슴이 자꾸 울컥해서 울고 싶을때
그래요 흘러가는대로 그대로
그대의 마음 사랑했던 그대로
애써 잊으려 마요 애써 지우려 마요 그게 더 힘겨울 테니까
너무 보고 싶을 땐 자꾸 생각이 날 땐 그냥 그리워해요
*REPEAT
결국 만나야 할 사람은 애써 찾지 않아도
언젠간 꼭 다시 만나게 되고
헤어질 사람은 아무리 애를 써도
언젠가는 끝내 헤어질텐데
그대 서러워 마요 혼자 외로워 마요 사랑은 다 그런 거래요
피고 지는 꽃처럼 다시 오는 거래요 세월이 약인거겠죠
RAP]
그리운 그대로 보고픈 그대로
세월이 흘러가면 어떻게든 잊겠죠
만나게 될 사람은 언젠가 꼭 만나고
헤어질 사람은 끝내 헤어지고 마는것
사랑은 그런것 이별은 그런것

Translation

Pasted from <http://firstly-intan.blogspot.com/2012/04/k-popyangpa-davichi-hanna-love-is-all.html>

* Please don't cry, don't be sad Love is all the same The more you give your heart, the more your heart hurts It's only love if it hurts Put away your tears, please smile now Even if love makes you cry If you really loved, if you really don't regret Then that is enough * Repeat Tears falling means that you loved Even if you try to erase, it won't be erased When you long for that person, call out their name When you're so lonely, close your two eyes When you miss that person and want to hug them When your heart keeps wanting to cry Yes, just go with the flow Just how your heart used to love Don't try to forget, don't try to erase Because that makes it harder When you miss him/her so much, when you keep thinking about him/her Just long for that person * Repeat Even if you don't try to meet that one person for you At some point, you will meet that person Because if it's a person who is not for you, No matter how hard you try, you will break up Don't be upset, don't be lonely by yourself Love is all the same Like a blooming and withering flower, it'll come again Time is medicine Just as you long for that person, just as you miss that person When time passes, you will forget somehow If it's a person who is for you, you will meet that person If it's a person who is not for you, you will be separated That's what love is, that's what separation is

My Vocation with MOM and MY LITTLE BROTHER in West Sumatra

Teaching Little Kids

Assalamualaikum readers,

Started last year, i ve 3 private students who live not very far from my house. there are some reasons, y i decide to to teach them :

1. I need to earn money for my self  
2. My mind doesn't work twice times harder than teach  high school students . i also have schedule at uni n it takes my times lots .i need to prepare n study for my self before teaching them. coz their lesson are not difficult n i don't need to prepare or read book at home :P .
3. this job is not really hard n the place not very far so i don't need to think how much money that i spent to teach since i just know how to drive a car . so i just go teach by walking . its healthy n save money :P

Even it s easy job , but the word of easy is not always . i agree that teaching high school students ur mind work harder but teaching kids u need extra energy . their lesson look simple but u have to know their mood very well. it s one of difficulties to teach them . u cant be really  a teacher to them . sometime u have to be like a friend coz kids love talking n sharing what they know  or sometime u have to be involve in their imagination world . This is how to win their heart n make them to study. when u teach them Ur knowledge doesn't impress them lots. what make they impress u is the way how u win their heart . when u can do that i m sure they gonna like to study with u . just like i did. teaching them also need patient even sometime u have to strict . don't forget bring a little present sometime to reward every good things that they have done during study . 

It s nice to teach little kids especially for me as a woman . sometime i wonder be a mother . n sometime i think this job is giving me so many inspiration for my future life in handling the kids.^_^

this little girl's name is Vania .she  is my first private student . she is the second level of elementary school. she studies in the Islamic school which uses the international curriculum. so some of her lesson derive in English . i handle her for every subject that she has at school. she is so clever  .she love talking n sharing so before we start studying i like to ask about her day at school . she also love games so some lesson i try to combine them with the game.

My second private students is Haki. He is the only little boy that i teach (sorry i dont have his picture ) at first day his mom expected me to help him in reading coz he has problem in reading Indonesia . he read so slowly n spent much time . of course it hinders him to answer the questions in examination . at the time i though many times whether i could or couldn't coz i don't have any experience . it s look easy but sometime the reading is the nature skill that come from the kids .  i also dont remember how i can read when i was kid. Meaning i dont have any idea how to teach him to read. So i try to used alphabet /letter card for helping me . somehow this idea come to me . It works.  i said one words n ask him to find the letter and arrange it for me n some time i ask him to arrange the jumble letter . beside that , i also give him some short texts to read , before he reads i ask to predict what is the story about based on the picture has given .  n Thank to ALLAH only in one month mean in 8 meetings. He can read fluently now. So for all mothers in Indonesia who r having problem to teach their kids to read u can try to use the alphabet card  :)

My third private student is Cici . she is shy girl . i only teach her English . She is clever but not really confidence so i ve to make her active sometime . she love singing. n u know what since her daddy has ipad . she ask me to use ipad every time i need to use whiteboard...hehehehe..

Tired of Waiting ! let me Go..........